WHERE THERES SMOKE THERES FIRE

Well it seems that my dog has hip dysplasia, that is a serious bummer.I have decided to let it ride for a while and see how its going to work out. I know that I want newfoundland dogs now anyway and that I want to try to get one that has her hips tested at like six weeks which I guess they can do. She is my dog, but i can not stand the idea of her hurting, breaks my heart.So she has been big on my mind lately.
I could write a couple e-mails and see how things are looking I guess.
I do not feel myself here lately and I am not to sure why? I feel a little set back on the house? Scared of it all. Yes I am scared of it. It is my design so what happens if it's not a good one? I can not help but step back and be a little more reserved because Andy has such a slow approach to things that it contradicts my enthusiasm.I just seem to feel dis con bobble ated!!!!whew.
I feel distant,humm. All this hurry up and wait. No real decisions being made? Tile, metal roof,driveways, water, you can go over it fifty times with Andy and make a decision with him get up the next morning and he goes back to square one all over again,. Me I say cut to the chase, right or wrong, let her rain. We are about 50/50. Pretty even.I know I respect Andy tremendously.Much as I hate to admit it.Ha Ha.
This is all part of the flippen process and for a poor little Irish bitch with more guts than glory, it gets a bit, shall I say boring? How the hell can that be?
Here I am building a dream house that I designed with a great guy and a picture perfect family, but just ain't no smoke and magic baby. Thats how. I know it too. Its so perfect its boring. Oh shit I am busting a gut at myself. Ha flipping Ha Ha. I can just hear my mom she'd be the first one all over this. In other words you can take the girl out of the engerbretson but you can't take the engerbretson out of the girl. I know what I am saying it just don't make any sense to me either.Jokes, no it does, there just ain't no changing it. I am more than cool with it though and I realise it's an inside job. I can create my way to all the smoke and magic I need.And in the end it will be the best smoke and magic of all.And I could not do it with out Andy being methodical.So bless his heart. Ever notice how I like the word, or non word "ain't" so much,yep she is one of my favorites.